I'm gonna blog about this cause it's always bugged the hell outta me.

Why is it that it's okay for musicians to be alcoholics and it's encouraged by the whole fanbase? Do you NOT want these guys to be around for a long time making more music for you to love? Are you only interested in the good time of that night and not the great music that could come if the boys would just quit drinking?

If I were good friends with the person I'm particularly concerned about, I'd rattle his bones for letting himself get so bad. I mean, he's even said to me, "I'll never regret anything more than the day I started drinking this heavily. Never drink, Natalie, just don't do it." He may have been wasted when he said it, but I knew that he was sincere and in a vulnerable state when he said it. I recently saw a picture of him passed out on a stage and many have said that he felt like it was the worst show his band ever played. I agree. I wasn't even there and I know that it was.

I hope that that was an eye openner for him. I wish he would quit. I wish that fans would stop sending shots or drinks to the stage. I feel like he's just living up to the standards of a certain lifestyle.

I wish that I were close enough to him to say all of these things without offending him.

No shout out is a bad shout out.

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Scroll down and look at blogville, american style or whatever. Amazing. It's gonna get taken out of context, but at least I got a mention.

I haven't been to a show in forever. If Jamie pays me this weekend, I'm taking my ass to the Hitone Sunday afternoon to see Chris Chew.

I'm hoping that I get the job I'm applying to tomorrow cause that means I could afford to go to more shows. I feel so miserable not going to a show at least once month. I'm like an addict going through withdrawls.

I'm so siked on being mentioned in that blog, fuck being taken out of context. If anything, it'll be a good laugh with the people who do know me and understand where I'm coming from.

I'm not bitter about not being the one to convert fellow Memphians into fans of Memphis music, I swear. It's just frustrating that it took MTV for my friends, who I saw countless hardcore and metal bands with, to get into the music I've loved and grown up with.



I really need to get out to more shows this summer.

AUNT CLARE!

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A kiss will make you close your eyes, but a kiss won't make you stay.

I'm so ready for the summertime. I'm ready for a visit to Destin with my sister, shows, cooking out at mine and Jamie's house, and taking long walks with Tuesday, my dog.

So, I've got an exciting oppurtunity coming my way, I asked Chris Chew if I could hang out in the studio next time he goes in to record something and he said 'yes'! I'm so excited, I'll be a kid in a candy store. I honestly can't wait to watch music be made and then buy the finished product. Chris is the nicest fella I know, he's been watching out for me since I first started going to North Mississippi Allstars' shows.(He's the bassist)

It's kinda weird that I'm just as anxious/excited about Cory recording in San Fran as he is. I've got this really great feeling about his third release, I truly believe that Mr. Cory Branan will finally find the success that he deserves and it will stick. Not MTV, but better, he'll have a career, like John Hiatt and Lyle Lovett. I have so much faith in his music.

Life has been so much better lately. I have gotten over a depression that lasted entirely too long and I've got my life back on track. I'm not exactly where I should be yet, but having my foot in the door is a start.

I have a feeling that this summer is going to be one that's very memorable, but not for any bad reasons.

Hold on to your sanity like you used to hold onto my heart....

It's been a while since I've been able to listen to Blair Combest because I'm a silly girl. I couldn't stand the sound of his voice in almost the same way I still can't stand to hear the sound of the disease's voice. That's such an insult to his talent and his wise voice.

Shit.

He wins.



I'd love to sit down with someone and let them read my notebook. I need some validation and an unbiased opinion on what I'm doing. If that someone enjoys what I've written, that someone has every right to kick me in the ass to write some more once or twice a week.

My only complaint about my muse is that she/he/it has no real sense of time. Whenever the muse strikes, I gotta obey.

I need to stop lying awake at night letting my mind go all over the place because that's what usually leads to me hopping out of the bed right as I'm falling asleep and writing for 10 minutes to maybe 30 minutes.

How is it that I can go from writing about a girl following Dylan on tour to the female Elvis to the Sirens who run North Mississippi to 4 bullriders riding a train so that they can bury their best friend/brother? They all have one connection, my love for music.

I wish I didn't have such a hard time making friends when I actually get out of my house, which is rare. Mostly, I go to the library or the park these days, only in warm weather though.

I wish my poetry didn't suck so bad.

I wish I had a best friend that could talk back to me, my dog is my best friend.

I know I'm not the only one who knows...

I always feel like every musician I know of belongs to Memphis, even if they've never lived in Memphis. Maybe it's because without this city and it's amazing history/culture, rock'n roll wouldn't exist. If those sharecroppers hadn't wanted a better way of life in the city, we wouldn't have this wonderful music.

When I look at the tourdates of my favorites, I get offended when there aren't any Memphis dates. They should make a point of playing a show here. I'm not being ridiculous, right? I know this is a tough city to make it in because the people who actually care about music are really picky and some of them are elitists to the extreme, but everyone I listen to is so talented and could easily make it here if they just took the time to do it.

On another note, I don't know if any of you watch The First 48 Hours on A&E, but that show makes me sad and intrigues me all at once. It saddens me to watch the Memphis episodes because most of the murderers on that show are babies, they can't be more than 24 years old and they're already out there killing because they don't see any other way out of their situation.

It's so sad.

I can't stand it. I had to turn the channel the other night because I was in tears by the end of it, not only because someone lost their wife, but because these are kids out there killing, kids who could have had a bright future had they had someone helping them along when they were kids.

Reality sucks. I'm so glad that I can just escape into a movie or a book or something that I'm writing. Thank God.

Good things are happening to me and I've got my foot in the door. YAY!

I think that we just need to take it easy.

When do people start paying for their sins? When's the retribution for the people who've felt like they've suffered for a sin they didn't commit? And why does an innocent have to suffer because of someone else's sins? Why?

I'm really glad I'm not a vengeful person. So glad. I contemplate it, but I don't do it. Yeah, I've got a devious mind, that doesn't mean that I put it to use for bad things. Most of my devious plans these days are good and go down on paper.

Am I just supposed to stop my whole life and cater to one person or everybody else for that matter? Am I? No. The answer is no. There's nothing wrong with taking care of myself or doing stuff just for me. It's not selfish, it's taking care of myself, but apparently when I take care of myself and doing something for me it is selfish.

Whatever.

I'm not getting revenge because I don't have to. No mortal on this planet has to get revenge on anyone because it's not in our hands and the sooner some people realize this FACT, the better.


I'm sick of my love being questioned when it shouldn't even be considered to be in question. There's a difference between complete annoyance and hate. I am at complete annoyance, hate is an emotion I don't feel. I may say I hate doing something or I hate an object when it breaks, but that's me venting. Damn.

Whatever.

My life is my life, no one can take it but the Lord above. I've got a destiny that needs fulfilling.