Show them how funky, strong is your fight!

Saw Cory Branan&Jon Snodgrass last night. Awesome. Just what I needed. It's great how a good show can give you the kick in the ass that you need, ya know?

I'm glad I'm getting out of this house and away from negativity. I'm moving on to a positive environment and that's just what I need to help me get things done. Just give me a positive place to live and a feisty(I'm planning on abusing that word for the next few weeks) attitude, I'll do great. Having a good sister is amazing, lucky for me I have 2!(No matter how much I may bitch about them, those 2 are quality sisters)

It took some of my favorite people in the world, that I never see, to remind me of who I am. I'm a goofy, caring gal who gets a little feisty(shoot me if you must) sometimes. I'm smart and I have plans, I can do this. I can reach my goal. No matter what.

Is 'hush' just a word to make you go to sleep?

So, I'm afraid of leaving my door unlocked so that my sister can come in when she gets off work at the crack of dawn. It doesn't have anything to do with her, but it does have to do with the fact that my dad's house(my home) got broken into a month ago.

I'm so scared of someone coming in while I'm asleep, even though I'm a light sleeper. I wish that I wasn't so scared.

Just like in a ton of my past blogs, I'm gonna take the time to say this: I wish that I had friends to hang out with. I recently saw a postcard on PostSecret that said something along the lines of "I'm depressed because I don't have any friends; I don't have any friends because I'm depressed." I love that people check in on me through the internet, but getting a phonecall asking me to hang out is way better.


Lately, I've been wishing for someone to physically abuse me just so that I can feel a different kind of pain. You can't imagine what kind of emotional pain that I carry around with me everyday. It weighs me down so much so that I can hardly get out of bed some days.


I don't know if I'm going to see Cory Branan Wednesday night. I could probably get there without any help, but getting home would be a pain. I really miss him and it would be the first show that I've been to since February. I'm gonna have a mutual friend of ours text him my number to see if he has any ideas on that. Nothing will come of it, but whatever.(I never get my hopes up about ANYTHING anymore.)

So, I've made a life altering decision and you won't hear about it for a few months or I may even wait a year to say anything. That's the way it has to be, no apologies. Just know that it's what I think is best for me and I'm gonna work hard to get there.

I'm moving in with my sister, Bridget, and I'm pretty excited/anxious. I know she'll make me work hard and do my best, that's exactly what I need.





It'd be so nice to spend a week camping out in the Smokies.

I really need to get out and find myself a new crush cause I'm still pining over the same guy even though I haven't seen him since December or February, can't remember. I bet my heart will still speed up the next time that I see him.

I really need a new crush.


Even though I can't help the nagging feeling that he's the one for me. I know it's foolish because I've invented in my head what we would be like together, and I know it'd be nothing like that. We'd probably cuss and argue at each other all the time.

I've got a really good heart, I just can't catch a break....

So, I've not updated my blog in a while and to make up for it I'll put up a couple of poems that I wrote last night. Try not to puke on your keyboard.

Memphis,Tennessee

Dear Tennessee,
I love you so much it hurts
Dear Memphis,
I'm sorry I must leave so quickly

But the pain in my heart
Has multiplied
And running is all I know
I'm so sorry,

Tennessee,
Please forgive me
For things that I've done
And will continue to do

Don't grieve for me,
Memphis,
My sweet city
I still want you in my heart

But the river rocked me
So hard
And I just can't
Get back up

I'm sorry for
The slanderous words
I said about you
Please understand

I was talking from my head
Not from my heart
I could never put down,
My sweet Tennessee

So, as I'm picking up my bag
To leave you
Please remember one thing
And then I'm through

I'm sorry for
The hurtful words
I said to you
Please understand

I was talking from my head
Not from my heart
I could never let you down,
My sweet Memphis city

Maybe, One Day

My heart
And my head
Are bitter enemies
They can never agree

One says, 'I love him'
The other, 'I'd rather not'
Trouble is
I don't know who's saying what

So be patient with me
I'm just a girl
On her knees
Begging for you

To be patient with me
And my bewildering ways
As I try to unlock
The puzzle inside of me

I've convinced myself,
Time and again,
That you've got the key
To solve my riddle

Maybe I'm just fooling myself
Baby, I really hope
That I'm not
Pushing you away

With these confusing thoughts
Bouncing 'round inside
Of my head
That I can't get to stop

But I'm the only one
Who can have that key
The only one who
Can solve this mystery

So, hold onto your hat
Hold onto your patience
And maybe, one day,
You'll hold onto me.