So, I'm afraid of leaving my door unlocked so that my sister can come in when she gets off work at the crack of dawn. It doesn't have anything to do with her, but it does have to do with the fact that my dad's house(my home) got broken into a month ago.
I'm so scared of someone coming in while I'm asleep, even though I'm a light sleeper. I wish that I wasn't so scared.
Just like in a ton of my past blogs, I'm gonna take the time to say this: I wish that I had friends to hang out with. I recently saw a postcard on PostSecret that said something along the lines of "I'm depressed because I don't have any friends; I don't have any friends because I'm depressed." I love that people check in on me through the internet, but getting a phonecall asking me to hang out is way better.
Lately, I've been wishing for someone to physically abuse me just so that I can feel a different kind of pain. You can't imagine what kind of emotional pain that I carry around with me everyday. It weighs me down so much so that I can hardly get out of bed some days.
I don't know if I'm going to see Cory Branan Wednesday night. I could probably get there without any help, but getting home would be a pain. I really miss him and it would be the first show that I've been to since February. I'm gonna have a mutual friend of ours text him my number to see if he has any ideas on that. Nothing will come of it, but whatever.(I never get my hopes up about ANYTHING anymore.)
So, I've made a life altering decision and you won't hear about it for a few months or I may even wait a year to say anything. That's the way it has to be, no apologies. Just know that it's what I think is best for me and I'm gonna work hard to get there.
I'm moving in with my sister, Bridget, and I'm pretty excited/anxious. I know she'll make me work hard and do my best, that's exactly what I need.
It'd be so nice to spend a week camping out in the Smokies.
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