Later is better than never(in some cases).

So, I've decided on my 2 New Year's resolutions.

1. Get down to a size 6 by this coming NYE.
2. Return to the real me, show it, let my freak flag fly, etc.

Number one is made all the time, but I'm gonna do it! I have to, for myself.

Number two is self-preservation and being honest with myself. No more standing back and not saying anything because it might hurt someone's feelings. No more not saying anything cause it'll cause drama, I'm smart enough to know how to talk to someone and not make them angry. If that person can't appreciate my honesty, my realness; it's not my problem, it's theirs. I can't control anyone's reactions and it's not gonna affect me anymore.

I'm a really bubbly, smily person and I'm honest about how I feel and I'm not afraid to say it. I'm gonna be the Natalie that I'm proud of this year and for every year that follows. I'm gonna continue to wear my heart on my sleeve, but I'll do a better job of communicating and protecting myself and not letting my emotions run my life(at least, not completely. I'm emotional and it works for me, I just won't let myself get so down anymore).

I hate that the person that people see is depressed, bitter, resentful Natalie. That's not who I want to be.

That's gonna change right now.

Time for me to open my mouth and live my days for me, only me.